Originally posted 11/17/2015
My life was turned upside down…
since I last posted a blog. I was totally focused on my husband who was fighting a very tough illness* and sadly passed away in February of this year. I made the decision to be with him and give him my all. And although it was hard at times – missing out on ‘things’, events, work – I am so happy that I decided to put him first and not the other ‘stuff’. He was truly the love of my life and our 30+ years together gave me a joy that is hard to describe. He was so full of life and loved it all.
What I learned…
I know I am truly blessed to have so many years of unconditional love together. Something many people do not have. There is such a deep void now and I am starting to fill it back up – a moment at a time. Sure I am angry, and grieving, and my heart stops when I hear a favorite song, or see a special restaurant we loved, or see couples walking together hand in hand. My tears still flow. And I am lonely.
There are powerful lessons, though, that I have been learning:
I learned that I am really made of the tough stuff and that we all have unlimited reserves within us which are there when we need them.
This journey has taught me to be grateful, to slow down, to put things in perspective and ‘not sweat the small stuff’. To trust in God that this is what I am meant to be going through. My daughter is now my rock. To reach out for support – so many angels are around us if we let them in. And to be grateful for each moment.
Thank you from my heart to all of you who have, and continue to support and love me and to bring a smile back to my life. I love you all!
* Please be an organ donor now! There are more than 116,000 people in the US right now waiting for a transplant. 20 people die every day.
You can help. https://www.organdonor.gov/index.html